Fallen.♫
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fightTruth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bearThough I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…-Fallen, Sarah McLachlan
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It’s a pessimistic thought, but earlier I was thinking how things will be after LB Times, whenever that is. See, every semester is extended for me because of requirements, and I usually get close with my group mates. But when it’s over, we all get back to where we left off with our own lives. I haven’t met anyone who really went beyond being my group mate.
It’s a selfish thought, but there’s a part of me that’s glad we’re stuck in time. I’m always surrounded by people. Like I’m never alone, like I always have some people to eat out with.
Because I’m scared of what will happen afterward. Everyone keeps saying the bond people develop in LB Times is so strong that we might even help each other out after graduation or something, but… I dunno. I doubt it, I guess. I mean, it’s not like I’m such a great leader or friend or anything… But I wish I were. Then at least, I’d know I might have a chance in having a lifetime friend.
I told you it was a pessimistic thought.
Sigh.
I just want to be happy again.
